Final exam for SEM3

It's just the first day of final exam, I feel like had been killed.
First time I put so much effort on my weak subject. I didn't expect I can read all of it.
The weak subject of mine - Tamadun Islam & Asia
Yes. Last night I read all of it and try to understand about it.
But, GOD, you tell me why? What I had read last night seem like didn't stay in my mind.
What I memorize also do not come out in essay part.
Of course, I am who I am. Even I don't know my answer is correct or not, I still try not to leave it blank.
It's a sad case you know. When you try to do something that you hate and try to except it.
At last, everything spoil.
Tamadun Islam, you really spoil my mood now. ='(
BTW, I wish, hope and pray, I will get at least A- for you!
Huurrmmm.. Have to continue my revision already.
Before that, let me show Taro Chats for beloved readers. Teehheee. Hope my mood recover faster!

Do you think I'm strong enough?

 

大家都以为，真的那么以为我周茹蒽是个疯疯癫癫 + 爱搞笑的傻婆。

我不疯疯癫癫，不搞笑，你们笑得起来吗? 

这一切的一切，都只是想让大家开心，然后我也能够忘掉我的不开心。

大家都不知道的事：

* 很多时候我假装我很坚强，因为我希望有天我真的可以很坚强的面对种种问题

* 当发现身子不对劲，我都不敢出声（我不想大家大惊小怪）不时，假装跟妈咪说我要做身体检查

* 发生出乎我预料的事情时，我假装很冷静。但，有时泪还是忍不住的一直往下流

* 夜深人静时，我假装很勇敢，不孤单，然后在那里唱歌。其实唱歌能让我听不到怪声，让我觉得没那么纳闷

* 我假装什么都会，什么都懂。因为我不要别人认为我很蠢。（从小到大，家里人都没觉得我有聪明的时候。因为我不做功课，不读书，成绩超差。）

也许种种的问题都是我自己胡思乱想。我这个人什么都比人差，就是强在很爱乱想。

我曾问过一位好友，“你知道为什么我常告诉你我的心事吗？那，你又知道为何我会把 FACEBOOK 密码给你？” 

然后，她不知情的直接回答 “不知道啊！做莫nih？

我说：“因为我很害怕。我害怕有一天我会像外婆这样，突然的走人，然后什么都还没交代。家里情况就一片混乱。这种事情很难说的。像婶婶一样，新年时明明还好好的，结果没几个月后她就跟我们道别了。我真的很害怕睡了以后再也醒不来。”

当然，身为好友的她就安慰我，叫我不要乱想。

还有，我也想过不再谈恋爱了。我有那么一次就够了。虽然，分手是我先提起的，但还是有伤心及不甘心。就因为我当时的脾气，我们就这样结束了。自己还对自己说读好书再说。

经过了那么多事情后，我放弃了。对“谈恋爱”这题目不再感兴趣了。

我害怕有天发生什么事，我会再也见不到“他”，当然“他”也会很伤心。

少了一个人的操心，伤心，我会比较安心。

曾经被我爱过的，祝你们幸福吧！=）

晚安！

Can you accept it ?!

The last Family Photo of her. MAYBE?

Yes. The woman with black gown is my aunty. Last Thursday, when I received uncle Ben's message, he said "she sick seriously" and need my help to take care of his dog. The moment, I thought he means 发高烧 and cannot get up from bed.

But, when I ask my another uncle what happened actually. Then I got shocked!
He said that she's lack of blood now, and just B- and O- blood type can help her.
From my research, there just 7% of people have O- blood and 2% of people have B- blood.
All of us know it's hard for searching these types of blood. So, everyone keep sending the message and share it on FACEBOOK.
Everyone thought she will get well soon but it's out of our expectation, she's getting worse day by day.

When she felt not well and go for checking, you know what doctor said?

The doctor said she's pregnant. And, everyone is happy. But then, how come it become a cancer?
Doctor?! Are you a doctor?! I HATE doctor from now on!
From pregnant, it can become "hydatidiform mole"? then "brain cancer", then the bacteria spread to lungs and livers, and become "lungs cancer and livers cancer" ???
Doctor, can you explain to me "WHY"?!

Last night, we got a bad news. My uncle said she's not awake and blood keep bleeding in her body.
(I was worrying and cannot sleep well)

This morning, the doctor said that her brain dead already but her heart beating still which means she's not willing to leave us. Therefore,the stupid doctor ask her family to bring her back home which means ask us to give up. Again, I don't think the doctor have a lovely heart. Hey! There's still a miracle for her to live OK!

But, family members do not give up and ask everyone pray for her.
Unfortunately, she passed away at 1.30pm (5/3/2012).

I can't imagine how's everyone there especially her hubby and both of her child (The picture shows them)

I know it hard for accept it but it happened! What to do? I feel sad also. (Down)
For her family members, hear me, no one expect this will happen and don't blame on yourself.
I know everyone do not give up on her and she do so.
But, why she leave us today? Think positively, maybe God do not want her to suffer like this.
Do you know how suffer a person need to attack 4 cancers together?
You don't know, I also don't know.
I just know that when I get sick or flu, it can make me feel like dying already.

Anyway, AH SIM, rest in peace. We are always with you. ♥♥♥